Oct. 19th, 2025 12:58 pm

CN P3-related words

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Just writting this down for personal reference.
After years of trying to join chinese sites with no luck, a kind person directed me to Rednote and it's working wonders!! ✪ ω ✪
I'm so happy to finally be able to see what our sisters are doing. I'm sad I can't buy their merch because they all sell it thru apps rather than websites though haha.

But it's so nice to scroll on it, everyone is so talented and hard working...!!
Well, to the point of this post. Here are some P3 search terms I wanted to save, just in case I need them elsewere (^^)

女神异闻录3 - Persona 3
结城理 - P3MC
埃癸斯 - Aigis
望月绫时 - Ryoji
法洛斯 - Pharos
岳羽由加莉 - Yukari
主艾 - Aikoto (shuai) (+ hamugis as well?)
綾主 - Ryoshu
法主 - Thanashu?
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Oct. 18th, 2025 09:36 am

Today, Tomorrow & 28 Months Later

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Yesterday I printed out a bunch of info from the mayo clinic on ankylosing spondylitis and just left it on the table by where Mom was sleeping on the couch at the time, and then I laid down for a nap and when I got up like an hour and a half later, the papers were sitting on the side-table in my bedroom and I was like. Great. She probably didn't even READ them. BUT. When I went downstairs, she just kind of went "so, I guess lifting really IS out for you, huh?"

And I just. THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN SAYING. But Mom is the kind of person who can't just take your word for it, she needs to read the science stuff, and as frustrating as it is, I do understand that. I think now she finally GETS how colossally fucked my back and ribs and joints actually ARE, though when we go down to Dad's to offload my stuff tomorrow I guarantee she's going to conveniently forget and force me to help haul boxes and furniture, anyway. That's just how she is.

Speaking of tomorrow, I realized this morning when I was feeding Pluto that I won't be around to feed him tomorrow morning, so I have to ask Lee to do it. I know he'll say yes, but then I have to show him what to do (there's two whole steps but he'll still forget them) and kind of go FINGERS CROSSED and hope he even remembers to do it. Though Pluto will help with that, he's annoying enough when it comes to Food Time. :P

Today I have to make a bunch of sandwiches and get things ready for packing food tomorrow. I'm making four tuna sandwiches and two egg salad, and I got Mom to pick up some fruit cups (she got them packed in water. WATER. *facepalm* Whatever.) And some cheese and crackers, and some clementines. A can of Coke for me, and a can of Fresca for Mom. Maybe something else if I can think of anything. Granola bars? I have tons of those. Basically I'm packing for an entire day's worth of food 6am-->7pm (ish) so I want to cover our bases. Anything leftover can just go in the fridge when we get back home again. *shrug*

Other than that, the only thing to talk about is 28 Months Later. Basically, when the new 28 movie came out this year (28 Years Later) I was very disappointed in it in general, but also because they did 28 Days Later, then 28 Weeks Later, then SKIPPED 28 MONTHS LATER to go straight to the weirdness that was 28 Years Later, and this is not kosher with me, especially with how 28 Weeks Later ended, with the Infected arriving in Paris.

SO. To rectify this, I decided I'm going to write 28 Months Later just for shits and giggles. It's about a group of tourists (mostly; there are a couple of native Parisians) on vacation in Paris who then get trapped there when the Rage Virus hits. I'm still working out the details, and I have NO IDEA when I'm going to find the time to actually WRITE IT, but it has a cover so it's definitely happening! Oh, also, it touches on the Rage Virus in animals a little bit, which they never really did in the films aside from the chimps in the opening of the first one. :D
Oct. 18th, 2025 07:51 am

it's the pictures, but also

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...energy. It is such a pain to upkeep multiple online presences at once.

I might cross-post some shitposts to have more """"fandom"""" stuff here. One day. I kept a shitpost archive on here, but the posts are private. Oh well.

I need to answer some email(s) and get to editing the SPAG and syntax on old pages before I have a short evening shift at work.
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Oct. 17th, 2025 08:47 pm

sigh

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I don't know when, but I might have to go through my site and edit a lot of old runes for SPAG and syntax. It's a headache reading so much stuff. I really hate the way I talk, but I can't help it. I do struggle with "getting to the point" and speaking wordy, it leads to misinterpretation constantly. I might start poking at short filler pages for syntax and dig into longer ones after.

I'm buying tickets for Sonic Expo next paycheck. Still up in the air if I'm going with anyone.
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Oct. 17th, 2025 09:34 am

Jack On The Scene

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Yesterday I FINALLY took Jack out of his baby spider-plant pot (he was SO rootbound), cleaned him off, and put him in the spot in the axolotl tank next to Dean, which was originally reserved for Castiel. But I've been through several plants named "Castiel" and none have done well in that spot in the tank (mostly because of the fans), so I'm trying Jack there because spider-plants are SUPER hardy and tough to kill. (In theory.)

I DO have another Castiel for the aquarium, a swiss cheese monstera that I'm in the process of growing until it's big enough and has enough root structures to add. He'll have to go next to Sam, but I've decided that's fine. And this is all assuming I don't have to emergency pull Jack out of the tank again some time in the next few days. (I really think that spot might be cursed.) If I DO have to pull Jack from the tank, I'll have to pot him properly again and then try to find somewhere to hang him. Maybe in the library, if Mom will let me? idk.

The last couple of days I've pretty much just been working on Hippocratic and Of The Deepest Dye, though I did write like two lines for In Memoriam yesterday. Does that even count?

Today and tomorrow I can write as usual but then Sunday is the day Mom, Uncle Alec and I are moving my stuff from Baysville down to Dad's place. I have to get up at 4am on Sunday so I have time to do my pill-and-nausea routine before we leave at 6am (hopefully I can get some writing done in those two hours), and for some reason drive up to Baysville even though the truck will already be loaded and ready to go?? I don't understand why Uncle Alec needs us to come up at 6am when he is perfectly capable of driving the truck himself, and will be all the way to Dad's place anyway? But whatever, my opinion is worthless around here lately, so there's always that.

Mom is going up tomorrow pick up the truck and help load it, and she keeps talking about since I'm coming on Sunday I can help with the offloading, and I just... I WANT to, but I CAN'T. She says she gets it, but I don't think she really understands the condition of my back anymore. I can barely take care of cleaning the cat litter every night. Ankylosing spondolitis (or however you spell it) isn't a joke. It's CRIPPLING. And that's not even counting the fibromyalgia and arthritis.

But fine, whatever, I'll carry as much as I can (probably 3 boxes) until my back completely locks up on me and I'm in so much pain I'm crying. Helping, see? Mostly, on Sunday, I'm going to see Dad and act as a buffer between him and Mom and him and Uncle Alec. If I wasn't so worried about what might get said between them if I wasn't there, I wouldn't be going at all.

Tomorrow, at least, I'm going to make some sandwiches and stuff so we have Road Food because Mom doesn't want to spend any cash on food the next day. We already have a case of water to bring with us, and I can make up and pack some egg salad and/or tuna sandwiches, and we can use Mom's cooler backpack (since mine is lost in the recesses of the closet somewhere) and bring some fruit and maybe cheese and crackers and that kind of thing. Like picnic food. So, that's the plan for tomorrow while Mom is up in Baysville.

I'm always such a burden on the people around me, and most of it stems from the government not being willing to give disabled people a living wage. We get the BARE MINIMUM that THEY DECIDE we should be able to live on. The only reason I'm still living here (LONG after I've worn out my welcome) is that ODSP gives me less than $500/month toward rent, when you can't even rent a ROOM for that anymore. I don't know what they expect from me and people like me.

It was a little easier when I was working at McD's for those two years, even $250 per paycheck, which is what I averaged, so $500/month was IMMENSELY helpful. But that STILL wasn't enough to afford an apartment (I looked, GODS DID I LOOK) and besides which, over the time I worked there my back got worse and worse until I finally had to end up quitting because I couldn't do it anymore. So.

I just don't know what I'm supposed to do, anymore. =/
Oct. 16th, 2025 09:00 am

Hiatuses And Such

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Okay, so. I've decided to take a break from writing Horror High et al fics for a while. Basically, I started writing the original Horror High in AUGUST 2024 and I've been consistently putting out content for the series every week or two ever since (with the exception of NaNo '24 and a month I took off in the spring to work on TKA) and it's not that my INTEREST is starting to wane it's like... the HH et al part of my brain is starting to fray around the edges a little. I need some time to sew myself back up and work on other projects for a little while.

So, next week I'm posting Fetters, then all of November is my TKA NaNo Tribute, then in December I'm posting Temper Tantrums and Baby, and then... like 2-3 months of other stuff before I get back into HH et al. But it's fine because like two people follow the series anyway, so it's not like I'm disappointing a loyal reading fanbase haha. Like I said, I just need to work on other stuff for a while; Valdemar, The Witcher, Fear Street, hell, maybe even other SPN stuff that's unrelated to HH et al, you know? Just. a break. And then back to it!

(Like literally I was supposed to be writing Hollow Things this week and I just COULDN'T. My brain REFUSED.)

Right now I'm mostly working on Hippocratic, my House M.D./Valdemar crossover, which is coming along really well. It's up to 26 pages and 12,083 words and I just started writing Chapter 2. Also, I added Jessica Adams and Chi Park to the characters because I forgot them when I was first figuring out the cast. They're minor characters, but I wanted to include them. Now I'm trying to remember if there's anyone else important that I forgot to begin with or whatever. Maybe characters who weren't Doctors who could play other roles around the Collegium? idk idk idk.

I'm also still working (slowly) on my Valdemar one-shot, In Memoriam, which is maybe 1/3 finished? Which means it'll end up around 25 pages long (ish), which for ME for a VALDEMAR ONE-SHOT is freaking FANTASTIC. God bless ADHD medication.

Still feeling very disappointed in myself over how TKA has gone, but also still determined to finish it, regardless. I guess it all comes down to editing it and then deciding what I think. Maybe having Mom read it and give me some feedback. I'm just still really thinking it is NOT worthy of publication, even after all the time and work I put into it, even with how much I love the characters and the world, and that... yeah. It sucks. I dunno. We'll see.
Oct. 15th, 2025 10:56 pm

it's the pictures

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It really is. That's why the jump from Livejournal -> Tumblr happened 15 years ago.

I am just too exhausted to code. That's why I don't update my site often now. Or post on here. It's really so much easier to upload my progress on a LPS custom on Bsky than it is to upload to Filegarden or here, grab the link, embedd it in a post... That I'm c&ping from elsewhere.

There's merit in taking "the long route", but I had an 8 hour shift and woke up at 5:30am. We don't have time for that anymore. I'm not a teenager nor unemployed anymore.
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Oct. 15th, 2025 08:59 am

On TKA

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I'm SO deep into writing TKA. I've been writing it for almost a year. Planning it for like three. I'm up to 258 pages and 131,641 words and counting, and I just... the last few days I've been thinking about it and. I don't think it's any good. I'm SURE it's not worthy of publication. And that realization hurts me SO much. That I've come so far and got shit to show for it. I'm SURE I've written better FANFICTIONS compared to TKA.

But then again... I'm sure the self-doubt comes along with being an author, right? So, I don't know.

Next month (November) I'm going to do one final push to finish writing it and hopefully get it done, and between that and editing it in the new year maybe I'll feel differently about it? Right now I'm just... I want to cry because TKA is my baby and I haven't done it justice BY FAR.
Oct. 14th, 2025 08:21 pm

hm

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Going to bed soon, but I wanted to x-post this from Bsky:

that starfox fanart reminds me of what i'd see on personal sites before social media had a stronghold on the internet. i used to like "drifting" in the "world" each fandom had by browsing independent fan sites/webrings, forums, LJ comms, etc.
people talk about le discourse is why fanworks are worse now, but i think it's that people having to "market" or dumb themselves down for an audience and the numbers game is the real reason why. i used to have so much fun browsing fansites and seeing absolutely off the wall indulgent fanart
"weird stuff still exists" sure but some is performative. otoh in high school i found a JP ace attorney fansite that has either klavier or daryan as a caterpillar in a nsfw context. would someone post that now instead of 2008? maybe, but it just hit different then i guess
idk where i'm going with this

Other points I should've mentioned: The risk of "breaking containment" holding people back just as much as ~discourse~ and the numbers game of social media. There's a lot to unpack because it happened in "the old days", but I feel like it's worse now when things are centralized and a lot of "big" sites userbases overlap. Example: I'm too tired to see if the Ace Attorney caterpillar fanart is still online, but I stumbled onto it in 2008 and it was reposted on Boobjection months later. People were shocked, laughed, or went "omg brain bleach!!!" over it, but it was far away from where the artist could see... Very different from getting retweeted and dunked on by thousands of people. (Also the image was shock value and a shitpost IIRC. Maybe it's on Paheal. I don't want to search lol)
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Tonight I've been randomly thinking about this one November when I was a kid, around 8 years old I think? Mom, my brother and I went up to visit Grandma and Grandpa because it was the Baysville Christmas Parade that weekend.

Then it turned out that Grandma had been working with Ruby and her family on a float of their own, "Bayrassic Park", and my brother and I decided we really wanted to do it too since we were there and also because we were kids.

So, the NIGHT before the parade they were up making us costumes (I was a Cave Girl and my brother was a Giant Turtle, they had already made awesome dinosaur costumes for Rusty and Ben) and the man who was playing the actual Caveman was chasing me around Ruby's house trying to catch "his daughter." I was running away because I didn't know him and was PAINFULLY shy.

Then the day of the parade, they went around the route like three times because Baysville is so small, and every time they passed by Grandma, Mom and Ruby we all threw ALL the candy canes at them. It was so ridiculous, but we were kids, you know?
Oct. 14th, 2025 12:44 am

DS9: S1E01/02 The Emissary (Review)

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And so begins my DS9 rewatch! Roughly my fourth time through, discounting single episode rewatches. My plan is to do some light liveblogging while I watch (to be put up on my website when that section is ready), compare with previous liveblogs, and after each episode, read through the relevant entries in the Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Companion, The Deep Space Log Book first and second season companions and Captains' Logs Supplemental - The Unauthorized Guide to the New Trek Voyages to read about all those production details Memory Alpha keeps citing (though I really wish I had access to the Cinefantastique and Star Trek magazine issues!). And I'll try my best to write some thoughts up and share them!

So, starting off with The Emissary. It's always strange to come back to early episodes like this – everyone feels sort of underbaked, not quite done cooking. Aside from Bashir being, as the producers admit, still quite underdeveloped, Odo feels the most different to me, at least in visuals and performance. His voice is higher pitched, more nasal than throaty, and the collarless uniform really doesn't suit him, frankly, particularly with the less smoothed-over makeup. He's a bit of a wrinkly old man, rather than Smooth Yellow Goop! Quark feels a bit lean in the face, too, not quite as friendly-looking. Kira's hairstyle is... a choice. I feel the need to compile all of her various hairstyles on a webpage at some point. No complaints about the set design though, it's as immersive as ever – and the lighting is done so cleverly in these complex spaces, as is detailed in the Companion, it's super cool and effective!

I have to say, it was refreshing to go back to a slower pace and different style of filmmaking, compared to many modern-day TV shows (the new Starfleet Academy trailer comes to mind as a striking contrast...). Everything had room to breathe, time to sink in, time to get used to what we were being introduced to! And that was definitely helped by the long, stiller shots that established locations very well. Even the action was quite chill comparatively! Bit of a camera shake, but no need for cut-cut-cuts! Such a nice change of pace.

Overall, I think the pilot manages to establish the setting of the show pretty well, though I think the next few episodes that show the establishing status quo more (Past Prologue, for instance) help. The Orb plot can at times feel a bit confusing, but I think Sisko's experiences in the wormhole/Celestial Temple ground it, I think because of how the episode takes its time with the encounter. It also gives us quite a bit of time to get inside Sisko's head, where he is at the start of the show. He is also really great in dealing with the messy, developing situation he's been thrust in, too. Especially fun is his maneuvering with Quark – and we get our first taste of that backbone of the show, the Quark–Odo dynamic! Kira's also established well, we immediately know what her deal is and how she tackles things, and implying what she's been through and what her life has been like so far, which is great to plant so early on for later exploration. The scene between O'Brien and Picard was also really sweet (though I found it funny how they clearly could not afford to get any of the rest of the bridge crew there, hah).

It may be a bit rocky, as season 1 is in general, but I think it's a solid start that covers all the ground it needs to without feeling crammed. Rating: 7/10 (I guess I'll do ratings! I admit I am tempted to do it out of 9, but that would complicate comparisons so much haha. Out of 10 it is, I'll just have to land on a good symbol! Deltas, perhaps? Too Starfleet? I'll workshop it, heh.)

Oct. 12th, 2025 06:04 pm

Thanksgiving 2025

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Thanksgiving is tomorrow, so today Amy and Brit are hosting a Thanksgiving Dinner at their place for those of us who are interested. I wanted to go, but Sarah (my oldest sister) and Heather (Amy & Sarah's Mom) will be there, and Sarah always brings her COMPLETELY out-of-control dog as well. I have as little to do with Sarah as possible because her behavior is ridiculous and makes me grind my teeth at the best of times, and Heather is an obnoxious drunkard so the less time I spend with her the better.

I put up with them at Christmas because I have gifts to give everyone (not Heather), but I avoid Thanksgiving and Easter and that kind of thing if at all possible. So, I'm sitting here at home watching movies and working on cleaning the axolotl tank and doing some writing with the vague promise of maybe a take-home plate when Mom and Lee get back.

Happy Thanksgiving, everybody!
Oct. 12th, 2025 09:31 am

The Pot Calling

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My brother didn't like his birthday gift. He didn't even PRETEND to like his birthday gift. And of course he didn't say "thank you" but then he hasn't said "thank you" for a birthday or Christmas gift since he was 16 and Mom stopped MAKING HIM. I don't know what kind of FATHER he is, but he's a TERRIBLY RUDE HUMAN BEING, and it's just gotten worse ever since his daughter was born and he started going to TO every weekend. He's a fucking ADULT and he needs to learn to ACT LIKE IT, and I know, I know, I love aaaaaaall the childish stuff, but when it comes down to the important things I take them seriously. It hurts me DEEPLY how he treats his family nowadays and there's nothing I can do about it except wash my hands of him, which I am very seriously considering doing. He's not acting like my BROTHER anymore, anyway.

Maybe after Christmas, since I already have gifts bought for him, I'll just write him a letter laying it all out on the line and ending with basically "as far as I'm concerned, B is my only brother, now. Have a good life."

ANYWAY.

Pluto has started scratching again the last couple of days and I can't give him another dose of the Advantage until like... the 28th. So, yeah. I'm really hoping he's just itchy from his coat growing in and the mites aren't back again. JUNA isn't scratching yet so I still have hope, but at the same time something in my gut tells me it's still mites and by two weeks from now they'll be out of control again. =/

I have to get Winter and Shield's cage tidied up so I can take pictures so I can post them on kijiji. I hate to rehome them but when I rehomed Rosie and Emmett it made SUCH a difference, so I know clearing out Winter and Shield will make that much of a difference again. I have tons of stuff to get rid of with them, too, like spare food and toys and a water bottle and a second CAGE, so. I guess we'll see how that goes.

The day before yesterday (Friday) Lee went out for music which is always a HUGE relief for me, honestly, I feel like I can breathe when he's not in the house. Anyway, Mom and I talked for a while and then we ended up (finally) taking my A/C unit out of my window. TWO WEEKS INTO OCTOBER. And we got it packed away. Or, I should say, Mom did most of this because my back makes me incapable. I said "thank you" lots of times and also "I'm sorry for the plants" lots of times because of all the plants I've got hanging in the way in the window. >>;

Yesterday I threw up my morning pills (yay! /sarcasm) so I ended up spending all day in bed because my Vyvanse was amongst them, and whenever I miss my Vyvanse (for whatever reason), I have a HORRIBLE day where I just feel like SHIT and my brain is going that static, scratchy, bouncy ball thing it does when it's not medicated. So, I just slept with the exception of getting up to pee and take some pills around 4pm and then to have some food around 7pm. Pluto was a Good Boy and kept me company basically all day, and Juna came and went over the course of the day, too.

The last few days (since I got Riptide back from the shop, so... Thursday), I've been watching the Underworld movies, and I just finished the last one last night. They got progressively not as good as the series went on, but I don't want to say "worse" because they each had their own good and bad points, right to the end. I know I have the original Underworld, but I can't remember if I have the four others. I don't think I do? But I don't want to buy them now and then have it turn out that I DID have them later on, you know? It's tough with 3/4 of my movies packed away in boxes.

I still haven't heard back about the Disability Tax Credit that I applied for a few months ago, but I think when I worked it out it was the end of October-ish that they would be getting back to me? So, I'll be patient for another three weeks or so and then try to figure out who to contact about it. I started getting the CDB last month, so that's another $200/month to go toward meds and animal stuff. And I'll admit I'm procrastinating over the CPP Disability Benefit application because it is SO complicated and asks for medical information that I don't have easy access to. I get frustrated just opening the packet, but I really need to get on it, too. I dunno.

Like, the original plan by the government was to give everyone on disability another $600/month, and then we had an election, and they SCRAPPED THAT and replaced it with THREE SEPARATE PROGRAMS that give you $200/month each, but two of them are practically impossible to apply for. Thanks, Canada.

...

One of my pumpkins got knocked off the windowsill some time Friday night, and I HIGHLY suspect it was when Lee was bringing his music stuff back in when he got home at like 11pm. Anyway, it's smashed to bits and probably not salvageable but I'm going to try. Or maybe just see if the dollar store has another one, because it was part of a set of three and now it's going to piss me off that I'm missing one. (Also annoyed that Lee would do that and then just LEAVE IT ON THE GROUND for someone to step on or something, like FUCK YOU BUDDY.)

My copy of Kill Creatures by Rory Power came in yesterday and I'm excited to read it... or not read it, as the case may be. The Vyvanse gave me back my writing and my arts-and-craftsing but didn't give me back my reading. Still, Kill Creatures is a short-ish book so I'm going to attempt it anyway. I keep trying with the reading and never getting past the first chapter lol.

In other news, Hippocratic is up to 10 pages (the Prologue and like 3 pages of Chapter One) and I SHOULD be working on Hollow Things but I think I might have actually burnt myself out on SPN? I have ZERO motivation for writing Hollow Things right now. So, I'm going to work on other stuff until Tuesday and then Wednesday I'm going to sit down for a week of Hollow Things. HOLLOW THINGS IS HAPPENING, DAMMIT. But after a couple more days of Other Stuff first. *nod*
Oct. 12th, 2025 06:48 am

peak mundane

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I listen to one earbud at work almost every day. On Wednesday or Thursday, I noticed a scab in my left ear, so I decided to stop using that one. Then I went out on Friday, and I noticed my right ear is having problems too when I put earplugs in to navigate the city after 10PM! Then my throat got sore yesterday. No fever. But I'm either having allergies or I'm at risk for getting sick lol, and I can't miss work since I don't have enough PPTO hours to "save" me. So my ass is 

Anyway I can't listen to music on the clock for a week, and I have to wear shitty unicorn headphones to listen to music at home or on my lunch breaks and I'm annoyed!
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Oct. 11th, 2025 11:41 am

blah

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Going out to Oak Lawn last night wasn't as fun as the first time. I tend to see people who don't like bars and clubbing as squares, but it's really hard to navigate when you don't have any IRLs. Some clubs have an attendance fee, others don't. They're kind of wild but I don't want to be around people vaping lol. The drag show was funny but I got really tired around 11:40PM and when I checked my phone I realized I work 5 days in a row after tomorrow. So that killed my mood a lot. The irony is I was approached by someone right as my Uber was coming...

I realize I prefer the speakeasy arcade and the coffee shop more, so I may go back during the day... Whenever that will be... Before I ordered an Uber home, I got a decaf coffee and it was really nice.

Took some photos of the rainbow crosswalks before Hot Wheels forces the city to remove them or else transport gets defunded. Why are Republicans like this lol? "We support free speech and private ownership... NO NOT LIKE THAT!!!"
Newsflash: the painted crosswalks were funded by private donations and charity.

Last time I went to the barcade (I guess), I played Puyo Puyo... The cabinet that was on didn't work, but I noticed one of them is basically a huge emulator with nearly every console? It has handheld, arcade, SNES, Mega Drive / Genesis, and even N64. That's something I'd love to have at home, since my modded Wii is stashed away. I should probably get back into emulating older console games and review them. I played Aero the Acrobat again for a hot minute, but I am SO bad at using a joystick. Same when I tried playing Killer Instinct and Mortal Kombat, this shit feels rigged. Flashbacks to when I finally got to play Baraduke on an arcade, and the joystick made it 3x harder :(

And as soon as I come back online, I'm greeted to an incredibly rude comment from a complete stranger. Yay, internet!
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Source: https://www.tumblr.com/janegumball/756812034090418176/starry-starry-night-now-available-as-a-foil The "shop" in the blurb is closed. Jane Gumball has a DeviantArt gallery, here: https://www.deviantart.com/janegumball/gallery but I couldn't find either of these there and DuckDuckGo is only giving me her (closed) store as place to find the Sunflowers artwork (Derpibooru and Furbooru don't count). There's a lot of artwork in JaneGumball's DA.

Happy 15th anniversary of the launch of MLP:FiM on The Hub! That was a US cable channel, but fortunately for most of us, people were rebroadcasting all the episodes on YouTube.
Oct. 10th, 2025 10:19 am

Gift Giving

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My brother's birthday is in three days but I won't see him then, he'll probably be in TO with his Secret Family, so I'm giving him his gift today. Honestly, I'm not even sure why I GOT him a gift after what he pulled last month, but I guess I saw it and thought of him so... yeah. I think I'm just going to stay in my room and have Mom give it to him, though, I mean the resentment is still REAL. It's tempting to baseball pitch it at his face, too, but I'd get in shit for that no matter how justified it is.

The worst part is that I don't think he even thinks he did anything wrong, and I know he wasn't raised to be a rude, ignorant, mean little shit because we had the same upbringing. But he seems to think the world revolves around him and his Secret Family and everyone else, including his ACTUAL FAMILY, can just get fucked. He's always had an attitude problem, he gets it from Dad, but it's just gotten worse and worse over the last ten years or so and I CANNOT abide it anymore. If no one else will call him on his bullshit, I guess that's my job now.
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Oct. 9th, 2025 07:40 pm

yay

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Good news for once.

1. My draft that's been in progress is finally moving forward. Almost done, but no conclusion yet. I lost my proofreader and struggle with syntax, but when I reread I can fix my issues quicker. I just wish I enjoyed "webmastering" more. I'm not tech literate enough for an SSG or CLI, but coding and uploading images is a fucking pain. That's why I don't really post on here anymore, since I don't want to use my image storage...

2. I'm going out tomorrow. I finally have 2 days off in a row this month, which is tomorrow and Saturday. So when I get up tomorrow, I'm going to shower, probably rewatch MLP on its 15th anniversary, and then go out to the city either in the evening or night. I haven't decided if I want to go while the sun is still out. Whenever it is, it has to be after rush hour traffic since I'm using Uber... I found out last month that 8PM is early for bar standards, but there's other shops around. I've wondered if a toy store is walking distance so I can look for Littlest Pet Shop. I can walk 1-4 miles on foot easily so it wouldn't be crazy if I went during the day. But also that literally IS crazy because I'm addicted to these stupid animal toys.

It feels nice that I could tell my family that "I'm going out" and not get probed with questions, I was just told "be careful". :) Last month taught me that I need to drink indoors, it was fun to run around the gayborhood piss drunk but also extremely dangerous. I also tend to pay my phone bill a month in advance, so I was in the clear for October. But I ended up paying again for this month so I could have 1GB of data without wi-fi. And I have $45 in cash on top of getting my paycheck on Tuesday lol!!!

3. Speaking of Littlest Pet Shop, my second custom is done. I just haven't taken photos. My first custom is on hold but 70-80% done. The third... I spent my lunch break using acetone to get the paint off. I learned the hard way I need a reference image before doing a custom, I can't wing it. My first custom was of an OC, and the second is my late guinea pig. I HATE the generation 7 deer, so I was going to use mine to make a Frankenstein's monster like creature. But I didn't make a sketch, so I wasted a bunch of black paint....

4. I requested my day(s) off for Sonic Expo, but haven't bought my day pass yet. I'm saving that for next paycheck. I thought I was going with family, but they only agreed under the condition I would pay for their tickets... I had no recollection of that part, and I can't buy a day pass for two other people. So when I go, I'll just buy souvenirs like Chao or Knuckles merch as an apology. I was told that Sonic Expo is similar to MLP cons since there's a focus on music, maybe it'll be like a promo for Harmonycon next year?
Oct. 9th, 2025 09:52 am

Holding A Grudge

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I got Riptide back from the shop yesterday! YAY! And he only cost $87! DOUBLE YAY! Although they don't appear to have done anything about the problem with him overheating which I specifically mentioned when I dropped him off. At least he works, otherwise, and they cleaned my keyboard out of all the bird dust and stuff, and I think they fixed my touchpad as well, which is great. And I was able to figure out how to email myself my writing files off Starlight so I have Hypocratic, Horsemen, Uprising, Circular, Hollow Things and Full Spectrum on Riptide now. I was lowkey worried about that.

I got so used to typing on Starlight the last week that I keep typing things wrong on Riptide now, lol.

While we were out picking up Riptide yesterday, Mom and I also went to Metro (for dumplings, I had some for dinner, SO DELICIOUS) and then Food Basics where I literally cleared out their shelves of original V8. Mom was like "why??" and I was like "because you said you wouldn't buy me any more groceries until I had paid you back entirely for everything I owe you, so I'm making sure I have enough to last the month" and she... literally does not remember that conversation whatsoever. *facepalm* This happens all the time, she tells me something or says something and then completely forgets and gets pissed off when I bring it up later, like I'm trying to trick her or something. I don't get it.

The only thing I didn't get was the sour keys I wanted from Zehrs-- oh, but we stopped at Tim Hortons while we were out to try the turkey sandwich thing they're doing right now (they literally burnt the bun black and there were only two little pieces of stuffing on the whole thing) and the one we stopped at had the ghost mugs from last year!! Two years ago they put out a heat-changing pumpkin mug and my brother got me one (for some reason) and last year was a ghost but I missed it, and then this year was a black cat. I got the black cat the other day and I had been LAMENTING how I didn't have the whole set, and then we went into the Tim Hortons yesterday and they were selling leftover ghost mugs and I was like *SNATCH* I mean they cost something like $16.99 each so it's a good thing they only put them out once a year. :P

...I have a birthday gift for my brother that I'm supposed to give to him on Friday, and I have this totally diametric opposition in my head where I want him to have it but I DON'T WANT TO GIVE IT TO HIM, because I'm still not talking to him over the bullshit he pulled last month. I'm hoping I can just get Mom to give it to him for me, but knowing Mom she'll want to know WHY and then when I explain she'll get pissed and shove the bag at me and tell me to do it my damn self.

I've never held a grudge with my brother for this long before, I usually just let his BS roll right off my back, but this time it really stuck, like deep inside my chest, and I just can't let it go. I'm past the incoherent rage part of the anger, at least, now it's just a simmering resentment that will probably eat me alive if I don't move past it. But he obviously doesn't think he did anything wrong, and that's part of what's bothering me so much. He has no idea how fucking hurtful what he said was, and he doesn't care.

Anyway.

The cats are both doing 10,000x better since I gave them the Advantage, so that crisis has been averted (THANK GOD) and it only cost me $100, I didn't have to take anyone to the vet and pay $250 just to walk in the door. Pluto was the worse off between him and Juna, and now even all of HIS scabs and raw patches are gone, and his hair is starting to grow back in the spots where he had chewed himself bald (the base of his tail and his back legs, mostly.) Both of them are back to their affectionate selves, where two weeks ago they wouldn't sit in your lap if you paid them in tuna, they were so itchy. It's really good to see them comfortable again.

What SUCKS is that I bought spray for the furniture and ointment for Pluto's raw patches for like $55 at Pet Valu and then it turned out I didn't actually need either of them. Boo. :P

I already rehomed Rosie and Emmett (to the best home EVER) but now I definitely have to find a new home for Winter and Shield as well. I noticed SUCH a huge difference in my allergies once the girls were gone, and if that's the case it seems stupid to keep the boys around. As much as I love them, they're bad for me and I need to get rid of as much of the dust and the feathers as possible.

So. I need to give Winter and Shield's cage a really good scrubbing and then take some pictures, and see if I can sell them (and all their stuff, even their spare cage) on kijiji or something. That's where I found Rosie and Emmett their new home (and if those people took male budgies I would be emailing them to see if they wanted Winter and Shield, too, but they only take girls to prevent breeding, which I can respect.) I'm hoping I can get $125 for the birds, the two cages, all their toys, their birdbath and all the food and treats I have in the spare room right now. I guess we'll see.

I keep putting it off because my back is so bad, but I really have to clean the axolotl tank today. It's pretty gross right now. Kaida is currently down in the hospital tank in the basement being fed up because he's too skinny. I need to get more worms on the 18th when my next check comes in, right now they're just on pellets and it's doing them no favours. I also need to FINALLY get around to painting the boards for under the new tank (I still don't think that's going to work, but whatever) so that I can swap the tanks over and get the new one all set up. Hopefully I can get Mom to help because literally my back is SO BAD, and my ribs aren't great, still, either.

...

I THINK Mom and Dad have finally come to an agreement on days for moving my stuff down to Dad's storage container on Lois' property; the 19th of this months (I think.) So, the day before Mom is going up to pick up the truck and load it with Uncle Alec, and the next day we have to be on the road for 7am to get down to Dad's place in time to offload before 4pm. That means I have to get up at 5AM so I have time to go through my pill routine and everything before we're leaving. Hopefully it's enough time to clear my stomach so I won't throw up when I try to brush my teeth (the gagging I can deal with, actually puking not so much.) =/

Mom keeps talking about me helping to unload the truck, and I keep telling her, my back is FUCKED; my ribs are also (slightly less) FUCKED, I can't even do my axolotl tank never mind hauling furniture, but she's insistent that if I go, I help. No questions asked. And I would just NOT GO, but Dad expects me to be there and I'm afraid of what might happen between him and Mom or him and Uncle Alec if I'm NOT there to run interference, you know? Dad is still pissed at Uncle Alec over the whole Storage Of My Stuff thing to begin with, and Dad and Mom get along TENTATIVELY at the best of times. Besides which, I'm worried that Dad will blab about me telling him he has a granddaughter, and Mom will fucking KILL ME if she finds out. (But like, does he not have the right to know?)

I don't know, my brother and his whole Secret Family thing is so needlessly complicated, and there are certain people who should know the kid exists, even if none of us ever get to meet her. My brother is being horrible and selfish by keeping her a secret from (most) people... although it could be her mothers that insist on the secrecy, I don't really know for sure. I have opinions on THAT, too, but no one wants to hear them.

...

I finally figured out the subtitle dealy-o and got to watch Under Paris last night. It was good, for a b-movie! But the ending really surprised me, like, okay, we flooded Paris and unleashed the New Breed sharks everywhere... THE END. Usually movies have a happier ending than that, so it was a bit of a shock. When the one activist girl got eaten I literally said "THANK GOD" out loud, and I can't remember what happened to the Mayor but I hope something terrible because like DON'T BE LIKE THE JAWS MAYOR, LADY. YOU WERE EXACTLY LIKE THE JAWS MAYOR.
Oct. 7th, 2025 10:48 am

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Pro-Israel? Pro-Palestine? You can be both.
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I wrote a longer post, but deleted it. I'm not checking social media or Discord much today. I haven't seen people I thought I knew get this ugly since Obama was elected. And I'm really sick of spoonfeeding people who "don't know" what I mean by that.

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