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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-21 07:22 pm
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sonic expo

Bought my ticket for Sonic Expo! Only for Saturday though, since 3 day passes are expensive lol. My work schedule the week before was changed to working 40hr... Which is actually good, because my paycheck will be fat before the con!

I also want to make an art tutorial... Whenever... I might do it in a format similar to plualthey / gray Folie's tutorials, because I like the comic format.
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-21 10:31 am
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TKA Month Coming Up. Again.

November is coming up fast, and that means another TKA Month! I'm doing it as my own personal NaNoWriMo challenge, since the NaNo went under earlier this year, so it's kind of a RIP NaNo Tribute and also me trying to FINALLY FUCKING FINISH TKA LIKE SERIOUSLY I MEAN GODDAMN.

I'm somewhat looking forward to it and somewhat dreading it because honestly I'm over writing this fucking book, I'm already at 131k+ for it and it just keeps going. And I don't feel good about it, either, I've said that before, I don't think it's good enough for publication especially, I think it's turned into something I didn't want it to and now I don't know what to even do with it, so working on it feels... pointless.

At the same time, I AM 131k+ into it, and I feel the need to finish it because I've already come so far. So, in November, I'm going to buckle down and finish my shitty, shitty novel, and then some time in the new year I'm going to EDIT said shitty, shitty novel, and hopefully in the meantime my feelings about it will... change? I dunno.

Then I'll let Mom read it (if she wants to) and get her opinion before I do anything else. I guess.

I don't know, the entire situation just sucks and I hate it. Boo.
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alierak ([personal profile] alierak) wrote in [site community profile] dw_maintenance2025-10-20 10:11 am

AWS outage

DW is seeing some issues due to today's Amazon outage. For right now it looks like the site is loading, but it may be slow. Some of our processes like notifications and journal search don't appear to be running and can't be started due to rate limiting or capacity issues. DW could go down later if Amazon isn't able to improve things soon, but our services should return to normal when Amazon has cleared up the outage.

Edit: all services are running as of 16:12 CDT, but there is definitely still a backlog of notifications to get through.

Edit 2: and at 18:20 CDT everything's been running normally for about the last hour.
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-20 07:30 am

Offloading

Yesterday was Moving Day, so it started at 5am for me which SUCKED but was doable, and unfortunately necessary because of my whole morning will routine. If I didn't want to be throwing up all over the car when we left at 8am I needed to be up that early. Blegh. Pills.

Anyway, the day before I got food ready for us--2 tuna sandwiches, 2 egg salad sandwiches, grapes, mandarin oranges, baby carrots, cheese and crackers and granola bars--which sounds like a lot, but we had NO IDEA how long unloading at Dad's end was going to take so I was packing like we were leaving the house for 12 hours just in case. Right, so we tossed the cooler in the car along with a case of water that I bought last time I did groceries (it already had a set of shelves and a half dozen boxes in it that wouldn't fit in the Uhaul truck) and we were off!

We met up with Uncle Alec the other side of Barrie at a pit stop place so that we could follow him down because he went on Google and found a route that was different from our usual one that would take like an hour less time to get there. I bought them both coffee because I figured it was the least I could do, and myself a tea, all from Tim Horton's, and a couple of small bags of ketchup chips (because I have been crazing ketchup chips like WHOA lately) from the little convenience store there (they were NOT cheap) and after we sat for a couple of minutes we headed out again.

UNCLE ALEC'S SHORTCUT ROUTE WAS AMAZING AND GOT US TO DAD'S SO FAST and took us through the back roads so we got to see all the gorgeous trees this time of year, and Dad was like WTF when we arrived at like 10am instead of 11am lol. On the way down I had a tuna sandwich because I'd been up since 5am and I was starting to get hungry. I usually get up at 7am and eat at 10:30am or so, so the timing was about right. *shrug*

Lois' grandson, Connor, was there to help, and once Uncle Alec got the truck backed up to the storage container and the ramp pulled out, he and Uncle Alec pretty much unloaded the entire truck themselves in about 45 minutes flat. Like, the rest of us kept trying to help and just getting in the way so we eventually gave up and just let them have at it. :| Then the truck got moved and Mom's car got backed up for the shelves and boxes in IT, and we were done!

Everyone is always like "YOU HAVE SO MUCH STUFF" and I wish they would think about the fact that a) I'm a COLLECTOR and b) THAT IS AN ENTIRE APARTMENT'S WORTH OF STUFF. A WHOLE KITCHEN, A WHOLE LIVING ROOM, A WHOLE BEDROOM, ETC. IT'S ALMOST EVERYTHING I OWN, POSSESSIONS, COLLECTIBLES AND FURNITURE FOR A WHOLE LIVING SPACE. OF COURSE IT'S A LOT OF STUFF. *FACEPALM*

So, after that we hung around and chatted for about 30-->45 minutes, and it was SHOCKINGLY pleasant. I had REALLY been expecting to have to run interference between Dad and Mom and Dad and Uncle Alec, but everyone just had a cheerful conversation and Dad didn't even mention the fact that my brother has a Secret Family, which was something I was NOT supposed to tell him to begin with. :| So, THAT PART was also a smashing success!

Lois is doing REALLY WELL now that she's had the one hip replacement, though! It was so good to see, because the last time we were down she was hobbling around using TWO canes in the house (because a walker wouldn't fit, I presume) and basically not leaving the house. Yesterday she came out of the house to the former-kennels where the unloading was happening, cane-free, and stood around talking with everyone, and it was SO GOOD. I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS LITERALLY I COULD CRY.

...but then we had to go (not before Dad took me to the barn and showed me his newest JP/JW dinosaur acquisitions; they're HUGE and GORGEOUSLY DETAILED and I WANT THEM, especially the Titanosaur and the T-Rex! He says I can have them when he dies but not before.) so we were off and my stuff is safe and not going to get thrown in the fucking dump in the spring! :D

Mom and I followed Uncle Len again to drive into Milton to the Uhaul depot there to drop the truck off, with a quick stop to gas up the truck because that's part of the contract, that you return it with a full tank of gas. While they were doing that, I went into the convenience store and bought myself a coke and a chocolate bar. Then we dropped the truck off, Uncle Alec joined us in the car, and we and tried (failed) to find like a McDonald's or a Subway or a Tim Horton's or something to have lunch at, and finally Uncle Alec was like "you know, I'd be fine with just a sandwich." SO INTO THE COOLER WE DOVE.

The rest of the drive home was pretty dull, just meaningless conversation and my back seizing up more and more because it turns out that even with not doing much of anything in hauling stuff from the truck to the storage container, just being in the car and driving for so long makes it act up. ~_~;;

When we got back to Orillia, Uncle Alec said goodbye and got in his own car and left, and Mom and I brought the cooler and everything in from the car and Lee was SHOCKED because we were home at like 2:30pm and not 7pm lol. He was making sweet-and-sour meatloaf and mac'n'cheese for dinner, which is probably my second favorite meal of all time ever (after a full-on Turkey Dinner) but it was still early so I grabbed my things and went to my room to have a nap before dinner... except I couldn't fucking sleep, thank you very much. >:|

In the end I just got back up. At least I RESTED for an hour and my back eased off a bit, right?

Anyway, dinner was FABULOUS and then I puttered around in my room working on designing and printing buttons (all the buttons I had printed before? Yeah, they were 1.25", and I just figured out a couple days ago that my buttonmaker is 1.5" so I had to RESIZE AND REPRINT THEM ALL. UGH.) and watching movies (Dead Snow is overrated and frankly offensive at times.) until it was time to feed Pluto and start my bedtime routine.

Also, I didn't log any writing on trackbear yesterday, since I didn't write anything, obviously, so I lost my streak. WHICH WOULD BOTHER ME MORE IF I HADN'T APPARENTLY BROKEN IT ALREADY LIKE NINE DAYS AGO?? I don't REMEMBER a day that I didn't post something, even when Riptide was in the shop (thank you Starlight!) but apparently it happened. I was up to something like 165 or 166 days, too. Boo.
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-19 10:13 pm
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whitehouse

I've been thinking about the band Whitehouse again. I want to write a page about it, but I can't put how I feel into words... Until then, I found a good review on Tumblr that explains what they're about:

Whitehouse The Sound Of Being Alive (2016)

My fascination with Whitehouse started when Controlled Bleeding’s Paul Lemos name-dropped them during the reviews section of Long Island’s underground music zine Under The Volcano. Since Cruise (2001), I paid very heavy attention to what William Bennett and Philip Best had done because I always wondered how they got away with their subject matter. Almost no artist even dared to put serial killers, sexual deviancy, psychological torture, and obscene vocabulary on permanent medium. Even just as curious was Whitehouse’s sound. Yes, we all know that after William Bennett’s tenure with Essential Logic did he want to explore sounds that could incite people as well as “bludgeon” them. So he took it from there and never looked back. The total sum of all parts intriguing, racy, and controversial became very interesting. It was why the Cruise-era and beyond became the era I mostly identify and am most familiar with.

The Sound Of Being Alive is a twelve-track reminder of Whitehouse’s final period starting with Mummy & Daddy (1998) to their final record Racket (2007); re-collecting an era of provocation, African instrumentation, and real celebrity subject. By then, Whitehouse ultimately became more sophisticated and thought-provoking, sharper and essential than ever due to their near untouchable subject matter and place in the creative world. This compilation absolutely wastes no time in not giving one fuck about your personal safety or well-being. It doesn’t care about consoling you or identifying what you’re currently going through. They are not here to deal in the obvious self-help or friendly pick-me-up. They are only here to glorify violated feelings, account for damaged lives, and cutting criticism. They will even offer more questions to bring it all out, even if it’s yours. Of course, they can’t do it without creating the sonic power-violence helping to push their always-controversial themes that illicit the type of artistic criticism it deserves.

They couldn’t possibly touch upon the subject of violation without the damaging sounds of “Cruise (Force The Truth)” and “Princess Disease” through synthesizers racing like sirens or pulverizing militarized noise rhythms of “Why You Never Became A Dancer”. The lyrics on “Cut Hands Has The Solution” is in no way self-help; piling on issues of anorexia and cutting which are validated by the success of those suspected of self-imposing their drama on others. The extremely sexually intrusive and awkward “Dumping The Fucking Rubbish” deals a multitude of questions leaving zero answers because you’ll never get them. They never cared for answers as you seen on the cover for “Cruise”. And hold on to precious life when the pink noise from “Philosophy” hits.

Or, how they ruthlessly tear you down to nothing with the caustic “A Cunt Like You” where Bennett’s key shrills and Best’s hateful venomous beratement are both acidic. If you’re still not damaged or perplexed after somehow even attempting to process their artistic output, maybe “Daddo” could become the final blow where vibrating frequencies dance around a delicate glass rim before disintegrations erase any evidence of sanity or stability through flashes of risqué Lolita imagery.

But beneath the rally of all the heavy discord and valid shock, there’s a true substance under it all. The stories of Stuart Lubbock found dead inside British celebrity Michael Barrymore’s swimming pool and the brutal truthful eulogy that came with it on “Wriggle Like A Fucking Eel”. A scathing attack on artist Tracey Emin as “Why You Never Became A Dancer”. The mystical African instrumentation and cultural references from “Dyad” and “Cut Hands Has The Solution”. The origins of “Philosophy” or “Just Like A Cunt”. These aforementioned tracks rewarded Whitehouse fans when they discovered their true obscure meaning. The former two would cross into tabloid and celebrity territory in order to really deliver the dirt. Ascetisists 2006 and Racket (2007) would help signal Bennett’s change of artistic direction to become Cut Hands. The final two stem from Bennett’s second-hand experiences of downright hateful arguments between two warring sides.

The idea that Whitehouse ran its course making a mark of the taboo, the racy, and the unspeakable speaks volumes. Very few (noise) artists really did go for the kill the way they did. Bennett’s start-of-project created lots of controversy because of his thrust of the unknown, causing lots of distress and violence because no one understood it. With Best helping to change Whitehouse’s direction and writer Peter Sotos throwing a little of his money in, Whitehouse pushed the limits on noise and subject matter as far as it could within reason to such distinction. Hearing all that’s said and done, The Sound Of Being Alive as a whole signifies the hideous, the missed expectations, and the damaging reality of it all that make you wonder if this is what existing and breathing really is.


I might try to write my page about how I feel. I can't reccomend Whitehouse. I don't like this kind of music. But it was "there for me" at a bad time when nothing else was.
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Mitzy ([personal profile] aikoto) wrote2025-10-19 12:58 pm
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CN P3-related words

Just writting this down for personal reference.
After years of trying to join chinese sites with no luck, a kind person directed me to Rednote and it's working wonders!! ✪ ω ✪
I'm so happy to finally be able to see what our sisters are doing. I'm sad I can't buy their merch because they all sell it thru apps rather than websites though haha.

But it's so nice to scroll on it, everyone is so talented and hard working...!!
Well, to the point of this post. Here are some P3 search terms I wanted to save, just in case I need them elsewere (^^)

女神异闻录3 - Persona 3
结城理 - P3MC
埃癸斯 - Aigis
望月绫时 - Ryoji
法洛斯 - Pharos
岳羽由加莉 - Yukari
主艾 - Aikoto (shuai) (+ hamugis as well?)
綾主 - Ryoshu
法主 - Thanashu?
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-18 09:36 am

Today, Tomorrow & 28 Months Later

Yesterday I printed out a bunch of info from the mayo clinic on ankylosing spondylitis and just left it on the table by where Mom was sleeping on the couch at the time, and then I laid down for a nap and when I got up like an hour and a half later, the papers were sitting on the side-table in my bedroom and I was like. Great. She probably didn't even READ them. BUT. When I went downstairs, she just kind of went "so, I guess lifting really IS out for you, huh?"

And I just. THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN SAYING. But Mom is the kind of person who can't just take your word for it, she needs to read the science stuff, and as frustrating as it is, I do understand that. I think now she finally GETS how colossally fucked my back and ribs and joints actually ARE, though when we go down to Dad's to offload my stuff tomorrow I guarantee she's going to conveniently forget and force me to help haul boxes and furniture, anyway. That's just how she is.

Speaking of tomorrow, I realized this morning when I was feeding Pluto that I won't be around to feed him tomorrow morning, so I have to ask Lee to do it. I know he'll say yes, but then I have to show him what to do (there's two whole steps but he'll still forget them) and kind of go FINGERS CROSSED and hope he even remembers to do it. Though Pluto will help with that, he's annoying enough when it comes to Food Time. :P

Today I have to make a bunch of sandwiches and get things ready for packing food tomorrow. I'm making four tuna sandwiches and two egg salad, and I got Mom to pick up some fruit cups (she got them packed in water. WATER. *facepalm* Whatever.) And some cheese and crackers, and some clementines. A can of Coke for me, and a can of Fresca for Mom. Maybe something else if I can think of anything. Granola bars? I have tons of those. Basically I'm packing for an entire day's worth of food 6am-->7pm (ish) so I want to cover our bases. Anything leftover can just go in the fridge when we get back home again. *shrug*

Other than that, the only thing to talk about is 28 Months Later. Basically, when the new 28 movie came out this year (28 Years Later) I was very disappointed in it in general, but also because they did 28 Days Later, then 28 Weeks Later, then SKIPPED 28 MONTHS LATER to go straight to the weirdness that was 28 Years Later, and this is not kosher with me, especially with how 28 Weeks Later ended, with the Infected arriving in Paris.

SO. To rectify this, I decided I'm going to write 28 Months Later just for shits and giggles. It's about a group of tourists (mostly; there are a couple of native Parisians) on vacation in Paris who then get trapped there when the Rage Virus hits. I'm still working out the details, and I have NO IDEA when I'm going to find the time to actually WRITE IT, but it has a cover so it's definitely happening! Oh, also, it touches on the Rage Virus in animals a little bit, which they never really did in the films aside from the chimps in the opening of the first one. :D
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-18 07:51 am
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it's the pictures, but also

...energy. It is such a pain to upkeep multiple online presences at once.

I might cross-post some shitposts to have more """"fandom"""" stuff here. One day. I kept a shitpost archive on here, but the posts are private. Oh well.

I need to answer some email(s) and get to editing the SPAG and syntax on old pages before I have a short evening shift at work.
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-17 08:47 pm
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sigh

I don't know when, but I might have to go through my site and edit a lot of old runes for SPAG and syntax. It's a headache reading so much stuff. I really hate the way I talk, but I can't help it. I do struggle with "getting to the point" and speaking wordy, it leads to misinterpretation constantly. I might start poking at short filler pages for syntax and dig into longer ones after.

I'm buying tickets for Sonic Expo next paycheck. Still up in the air if I'm going with anyone.
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-17 09:34 am

Jack On The Scene

Yesterday I FINALLY took Jack out of his baby spider-plant pot (he was SO rootbound), cleaned him off, and put him in the spot in the axolotl tank next to Dean, which was originally reserved for Castiel. But I've been through several plants named "Castiel" and none have done well in that spot in the tank (mostly because of the fans), so I'm trying Jack there because spider-plants are SUPER hardy and tough to kill. (In theory.)

I DO have another Castiel for the aquarium, a swiss cheese monstera that I'm in the process of growing until it's big enough and has enough root structures to add. He'll have to go next to Sam, but I've decided that's fine. And this is all assuming I don't have to emergency pull Jack out of the tank again some time in the next few days. (I really think that spot might be cursed.) If I DO have to pull Jack from the tank, I'll have to pot him properly again and then try to find somewhere to hang him. Maybe in the library, if Mom will let me? idk.

The last couple of days I've pretty much just been working on Hippocratic and Of The Deepest Dye, though I did write like two lines for In Memoriam yesterday. Does that even count?

Today and tomorrow I can write as usual but then Sunday is the day Mom, Uncle Alec and I are moving my stuff from Baysville down to Dad's place. I have to get up at 4am on Sunday so I have time to do my pill-and-nausea routine before we leave at 6am (hopefully I can get some writing done in those two hours), and for some reason drive up to Baysville even though the truck will already be loaded and ready to go?? I don't understand why Uncle Alec needs us to come up at 6am when he is perfectly capable of driving the truck himself, and will be all the way to Dad's place anyway? But whatever, my opinion is worthless around here lately, so there's always that.

Mom is going up tomorrow pick up the truck and help load it, and she keeps talking about since I'm coming on Sunday I can help with the offloading, and I just... I WANT to, but I CAN'T. She says she gets it, but I don't think she really understands the condition of my back anymore. I can barely take care of cleaning the cat litter every night. Ankylosing spondolitis (or however you spell it) isn't a joke. It's CRIPPLING. And that's not even counting the fibromyalgia and arthritis.

But fine, whatever, I'll carry as much as I can (probably 3 boxes) until my back completely locks up on me and I'm in so much pain I'm crying. Helping, see? Mostly, on Sunday, I'm going to see Dad and act as a buffer between him and Mom and him and Uncle Alec. If I wasn't so worried about what might get said between them if I wasn't there, I wouldn't be going at all.

Tomorrow, at least, I'm going to make some sandwiches and stuff so we have Road Food because Mom doesn't want to spend any cash on food the next day. We already have a case of water to bring with us, and I can make up and pack some egg salad and/or tuna sandwiches, and we can use Mom's cooler backpack (since mine is lost in the recesses of the closet somewhere) and bring some fruit and maybe cheese and crackers and that kind of thing. Like picnic food. So, that's the plan for tomorrow while Mom is up in Baysville.

I'm always such a burden on the people around me, and most of it stems from the government not being willing to give disabled people a living wage. We get the BARE MINIMUM that THEY DECIDE we should be able to live on. The only reason I'm still living here (LONG after I've worn out my welcome) is that ODSP gives me less than $500/month toward rent, when you can't even rent a ROOM for that anymore. I don't know what they expect from me and people like me.

It was a little easier when I was working at McD's for those two years, even $250 per paycheck, which is what I averaged, so $500/month was IMMENSELY helpful. But that STILL wasn't enough to afford an apartment (I looked, GODS DID I LOOK) and besides which, over the time I worked there my back got worse and worse until I finally had to end up quitting because I couldn't do it anymore. So.

I just don't know what I'm supposed to do, anymore. =/
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-16 09:00 am

Hiatuses And Such

Okay, so. I've decided to take a break from writing Horror High et al fics for a while. Basically, I started writing the original Horror High in AUGUST 2024 and I've been consistently putting out content for the series every week or two ever since (with the exception of NaNo '24 and a month I took off in the spring to work on TKA) and it's not that my INTEREST is starting to wane it's like... the HH et al part of my brain is starting to fray around the edges a little. I need some time to sew myself back up and work on other projects for a little while.

So, next week I'm posting Fetters, then all of November is my TKA NaNo Tribute, then in December I'm posting Temper Tantrums and Baby, and then... like 2-3 months of other stuff before I get back into HH et al. But it's fine because like two people follow the series anyway, so it's not like I'm disappointing a loyal reading fanbase haha. Like I said, I just need to work on other stuff for a while; Valdemar, The Witcher, Fear Street, hell, maybe even other SPN stuff that's unrelated to HH et al, you know? Just. a break. And then back to it!

(Like literally I was supposed to be writing Hollow Things this week and I just COULDN'T. My brain REFUSED.)

Right now I'm mostly working on Hippocratic, my House M.D./Valdemar crossover, which is coming along really well. It's up to 26 pages and 12,083 words and I just started writing Chapter 2. Also, I added Jessica Adams and Chi Park to the characters because I forgot them when I was first figuring out the cast. They're minor characters, but I wanted to include them. Now I'm trying to remember if there's anyone else important that I forgot to begin with or whatever. Maybe characters who weren't Doctors who could play other roles around the Collegium? idk idk idk.

I'm also still working (slowly) on my Valdemar one-shot, In Memoriam, which is maybe 1/3 finished? Which means it'll end up around 25 pages long (ish), which for ME for a VALDEMAR ONE-SHOT is freaking FANTASTIC. God bless ADHD medication.

Still feeling very disappointed in myself over how TKA has gone, but also still determined to finish it, regardless. I guess it all comes down to editing it and then deciding what I think. Maybe having Mom read it and give me some feedback. I'm just still really thinking it is NOT worthy of publication, even after all the time and work I put into it, even with how much I love the characters and the world, and that... yeah. It sucks. I dunno. We'll see.
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-15 10:56 pm
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it's the pictures

It really is. That's why the jump from Livejournal -> Tumblr happened 15 years ago.

I am just too exhausted to code. That's why I don't update my site often now. Or post on here. It's really so much easier to upload my progress on a LPS custom on Bsky than it is to upload to Filegarden or here, grab the link, embedd it in a post... That I'm c&ping from elsewhere.

There's merit in taking "the long route", but I had an 8 hour shift and woke up at 5:30am. We don't have time for that anymore. I'm not a teenager nor unemployed anymore.
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-15 08:59 am

On TKA

I'm SO deep into writing TKA. I've been writing it for almost a year. Planning it for like three. I'm up to 258 pages and 131,641 words and counting, and I just... the last few days I've been thinking about it and. I don't think it's any good. I'm SURE it's not worthy of publication. And that realization hurts me SO much. That I've come so far and got shit to show for it. I'm SURE I've written better FANFICTIONS compared to TKA.

But then again... I'm sure the self-doubt comes along with being an author, right? So, I don't know.

Next month (November) I'm going to do one final push to finish writing it and hopefully get it done, and between that and editing it in the new year maybe I'll feel differently about it? Right now I'm just... I want to cry because TKA is my baby and I haven't done it justice BY FAR.
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-14 08:21 pm
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hm

Going to bed soon, but I wanted to x-post this from Bsky:

that starfox fanart reminds me of what i'd see on personal sites before social media had a stronghold on the internet. i used to like "drifting" in the "world" each fandom had by browsing independent fan sites/webrings, forums, LJ comms, etc.
people talk about le discourse is why fanworks are worse now, but i think it's that people having to "market" or dumb themselves down for an audience and the numbers game is the real reason why. i used to have so much fun browsing fansites and seeing absolutely off the wall indulgent fanart
"weird stuff still exists" sure but some is performative. otoh in high school i found a JP ace attorney fansite that has either klavier or daryan as a caterpillar in a nsfw context. would someone post that now instead of 2008? maybe, but it just hit different then i guess
idk where i'm going with this

Other points I should've mentioned: The risk of "breaking containment" holding people back just as much as ~discourse~ and the numbers game of social media. There's a lot to unpack because it happened in "the old days", but I feel like it's worse now when things are centralized and a lot of "big" sites userbases overlap. Example: I'm too tired to see if the Ace Attorney caterpillar fanart is still online, but I stumbled onto it in 2008 and it was reposted on Boobjection months later. People were shocked, laughed, or went "omg brain bleach!!!" over it, but it was far away from where the artist could see... Very different from getting retweeted and dunked on by thousands of people. (Also the image was shock value and a shitpost IIRC. Maybe it's on Paheal. I don't want to search lol)
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-13 08:33 pm
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A Cave-Girl And A Turtle Walk Into A Bar...

Tonight I've been randomly thinking about this one November when I was a kid, around 8 years old I think? Mom, my brother and I went up to visit Grandma and Grandpa because it was the Baysville Christmas Parade that weekend.

Then it turned out that Grandma had been working with Ruby and her family on a float of their own, "Bayrassic Park", and my brother and I decided we really wanted to do it too since we were there and also because we were kids.

So, the NIGHT before the parade they were up making us costumes (I was a Cave Girl and my brother was a Giant Turtle, they had already made awesome dinosaur costumes for Rusty and Ben) and the man who was playing the actual Caveman was chasing me around Ruby's house trying to catch "his daughter." I was running away because I didn't know him and was PAINFULLY shy.

Then the day of the parade, they went around the route like three times because Baysville is so small, and every time they passed by Grandma, Mom and Ruby we all threw ALL the candy canes at them. It was so ridiculous, but we were kids, you know?
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PC ([personal profile] axolotls) wrote2025-10-14 12:44 am

DS9: S1E01/02 The Emissary (Review)

And so begins my DS9 rewatch! Roughly my fourth time through, discounting single episode rewatches. My plan is to do some light liveblogging while I watch (to be put up on my website when that section is ready), compare with previous liveblogs, and after each episode, read through the relevant entries in the Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Companion, The Deep Space Log Book first and second season companions and Captains' Logs Supplemental - The Unauthorized Guide to the New Trek Voyages to read about all those production details Memory Alpha keeps citing (though I really wish I had access to the Cinefantastique and Star Trek magazine issues!). And I'll try my best to write some thoughts up and share them!

So, starting off with The Emissary. It's always strange to come back to early episodes like this – everyone feels sort of underbaked, not quite done cooking. Aside from Bashir being, as the producers admit, still quite underdeveloped, Odo feels the most different to me, at least in visuals and performance. His voice is higher pitched, more nasal than throaty, and the collarless uniform really doesn't suit him, frankly, particularly with the less smoothed-over makeup. He's a bit of a wrinkly old man, rather than Smooth Yellow Goop! Quark feels a bit lean in the face, too, not quite as friendly-looking. Kira's hairstyle is... a choice. I feel the need to compile all of her various hairstyles on a webpage at some point. No complaints about the set design though, it's as immersive as ever – and the lighting is done so cleverly in these complex spaces, as is detailed in the Companion, it's super cool and effective!

I have to say, it was refreshing to go back to a slower pace and different style of filmmaking, compared to many modern-day TV shows (the new Starfleet Academy trailer comes to mind as a striking contrast...). Everything had room to breathe, time to sink in, time to get used to what we were being introduced to! And that was definitely helped by the long, stiller shots that established locations very well. Even the action was quite chill comparatively! Bit of a camera shake, but no need for cut-cut-cuts! Such a nice change of pace.

Overall, I think the pilot manages to establish the setting of the show pretty well, though I think the next few episodes that show the establishing status quo more (Past Prologue, for instance) help. The Orb plot can at times feel a bit confusing, but I think Sisko's experiences in the wormhole/Celestial Temple ground it, I think because of how the episode takes its time with the encounter. It also gives us quite a bit of time to get inside Sisko's head, where he is at the start of the show. He is also really great in dealing with the messy, developing situation he's been thrust in, too. Especially fun is his maneuvering with Quark – and we get our first taste of that backbone of the show, the Quark–Odo dynamic! Kira's also established well, we immediately know what her deal is and how she tackles things, and implying what she's been through and what her life has been like so far, which is great to plant so early on for later exploration. The scene between O'Brien and Picard was also really sweet (though I found it funny how they clearly could not afford to get any of the rest of the bridge crew there, hah).

It may be a bit rocky, as season 1 is in general, but I think it's a solid start that covers all the ground it needs to without feeling crammed. Rating: 7/10 (I guess I'll do ratings! I admit I am tempted to do it out of 9, but that would complicate comparisons so much haha. Out of 10 it is, I'll just have to land on a good symbol! Deltas, perhaps? Too Starfleet? I'll workshop it, heh.)

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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-12 06:04 pm
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Thanksgiving 2025

Thanksgiving is tomorrow, so today Amy and Brit are hosting a Thanksgiving Dinner at their place for those of us who are interested. I wanted to go, but Sarah (my oldest sister) and Heather (Amy & Sarah's Mom) will be there, and Sarah always brings her COMPLETELY out-of-control dog as well. I have as little to do with Sarah as possible because her behavior is ridiculous and makes me grind my teeth at the best of times, and Heather is an obnoxious drunkard so the less time I spend with her the better.

I put up with them at Christmas because I have gifts to give everyone (not Heather), but I avoid Thanksgiving and Easter and that kind of thing if at all possible. So, I'm sitting here at home watching movies and working on cleaning the axolotl tank and doing some writing with the vague promise of maybe a take-home plate when Mom and Lee get back.

Happy Thanksgiving, everybody!
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Sena ([personal profile] senashenta) wrote2025-10-12 09:31 am

The Pot Calling

My brother didn't like his birthday gift. He didn't even PRETEND to like his birthday gift. And of course he didn't say "thank you" but then he hasn't said "thank you" for a birthday or Christmas gift since he was 16 and Mom stopped MAKING HIM. I don't know what kind of FATHER he is, but he's a TERRIBLY RUDE HUMAN BEING, and it's just gotten worse ever since his daughter was born and he started going to TO every weekend. He's a fucking ADULT and he needs to learn to ACT LIKE IT, and I know, I know, I love aaaaaaall the childish stuff, but when it comes down to the important things I take them seriously. It hurts me DEEPLY how he treats his family nowadays and there's nothing I can do about it except wash my hands of him, which I am very seriously considering doing. He's not acting like my BROTHER anymore, anyway.

Maybe after Christmas, since I already have gifts bought for him, I'll just write him a letter laying it all out on the line and ending with basically "as far as I'm concerned, B is my only brother, now. Have a good life."

ANYWAY.

Pluto has started scratching again the last couple of days and I can't give him another dose of the Advantage until like... the 28th. So, yeah. I'm really hoping he's just itchy from his coat growing in and the mites aren't back again. JUNA isn't scratching yet so I still have hope, but at the same time something in my gut tells me it's still mites and by two weeks from now they'll be out of control again. =/

I have to get Winter and Shield's cage tidied up so I can take pictures so I can post them on kijiji. I hate to rehome them but when I rehomed Rosie and Emmett it made SUCH a difference, so I know clearing out Winter and Shield will make that much of a difference again. I have tons of stuff to get rid of with them, too, like spare food and toys and a water bottle and a second CAGE, so. I guess we'll see how that goes.

The day before yesterday (Friday) Lee went out for music which is always a HUGE relief for me, honestly, I feel like I can breathe when he's not in the house. Anyway, Mom and I talked for a while and then we ended up (finally) taking my A/C unit out of my window. TWO WEEKS INTO OCTOBER. And we got it packed away. Or, I should say, Mom did most of this because my back makes me incapable. I said "thank you" lots of times and also "I'm sorry for the plants" lots of times because of all the plants I've got hanging in the way in the window. >>;

Yesterday I threw up my morning pills (yay! /sarcasm) so I ended up spending all day in bed because my Vyvanse was amongst them, and whenever I miss my Vyvanse (for whatever reason), I have a HORRIBLE day where I just feel like SHIT and my brain is going that static, scratchy, bouncy ball thing it does when it's not medicated. So, I just slept with the exception of getting up to pee and take some pills around 4pm and then to have some food around 7pm. Pluto was a Good Boy and kept me company basically all day, and Juna came and went over the course of the day, too.

The last few days (since I got Riptide back from the shop, so... Thursday), I've been watching the Underworld movies, and I just finished the last one last night. They got progressively not as good as the series went on, but I don't want to say "worse" because they each had their own good and bad points, right to the end. I know I have the original Underworld, but I can't remember if I have the four others. I don't think I do? But I don't want to buy them now and then have it turn out that I DID have them later on, you know? It's tough with 3/4 of my movies packed away in boxes.

I still haven't heard back about the Disability Tax Credit that I applied for a few months ago, but I think when I worked it out it was the end of October-ish that they would be getting back to me? So, I'll be patient for another three weeks or so and then try to figure out who to contact about it. I started getting the CDB last month, so that's another $200/month to go toward meds and animal stuff. And I'll admit I'm procrastinating over the CPP Disability Benefit application because it is SO complicated and asks for medical information that I don't have easy access to. I get frustrated just opening the packet, but I really need to get on it, too. I dunno.

Like, the original plan by the government was to give everyone on disability another $600/month, and then we had an election, and they SCRAPPED THAT and replaced it with THREE SEPARATE PROGRAMS that give you $200/month each, but two of them are practically impossible to apply for. Thanks, Canada.

...

One of my pumpkins got knocked off the windowsill some time Friday night, and I HIGHLY suspect it was when Lee was bringing his music stuff back in when he got home at like 11pm. Anyway, it's smashed to bits and probably not salvageable but I'm going to try. Or maybe just see if the dollar store has another one, because it was part of a set of three and now it's going to piss me off that I'm missing one. (Also annoyed that Lee would do that and then just LEAVE IT ON THE GROUND for someone to step on or something, like FUCK YOU BUDDY.)

My copy of Kill Creatures by Rory Power came in yesterday and I'm excited to read it... or not read it, as the case may be. The Vyvanse gave me back my writing and my arts-and-craftsing but didn't give me back my reading. Still, Kill Creatures is a short-ish book so I'm going to attempt it anyway. I keep trying with the reading and never getting past the first chapter lol.

In other news, Hippocratic is up to 10 pages (the Prologue and like 3 pages of Chapter One) and I SHOULD be working on Hollow Things but I think I might have actually burnt myself out on SPN? I have ZERO motivation for writing Hollow Things right now. So, I'm going to work on other stuff until Tuesday and then Wednesday I'm going to sit down for a week of Hollow Things. HOLLOW THINGS IS HAPPENING, DAMMIT. But after a couple more days of Other Stuff first. *nod*
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-12 06:48 am
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peak mundane

I listen to one earbud at work almost every day. On Wednesday or Thursday, I noticed a scab in my left ear, so I decided to stop using that one. Then I went out on Friday, and I noticed my right ear is having problems too when I put earplugs in to navigate the city after 10PM! Then my throat got sore yesterday. No fever. But I'm either having allergies or I'm at risk for getting sick lol, and I can't miss work since I don't have enough PPTO hours to "save" me. So my ass is 

Anyway I can't listen to music on the clock for a week, and I have to wear shitty unicorn headphones to listen to music at home or on my lunch breaks and I'm annoyed!
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Capy ([personal profile] paperghost) wrote2025-10-11 11:41 am

blah

Going out to Oak Lawn last night wasn't as fun as the first time. I tend to see people who don't like bars and clubbing as squares, but it's really hard to navigate when you don't have any IRLs. Some clubs have an attendance fee, others don't. They're kind of wild but I don't want to be around people vaping lol. The drag show was funny but I got really tired around 11:40PM and when I checked my phone I realized I work 5 days in a row after tomorrow. So that killed my mood a lot. The irony is I was approached by someone right as my Uber was coming...

I realize I prefer the speakeasy arcade and the coffee shop more, so I may go back during the day... Whenever that will be... Before I ordered an Uber home, I got a decaf coffee and it was really nice.

Took some photos of the rainbow crosswalks before Hot Wheels forces the city to remove them or else transport gets defunded. Why are Republicans like this lol? "We support free speech and private ownership... NO NOT LIKE THAT!!!"
Newsflash: the painted crosswalks were funded by private donations and charity.

Last time I went to the barcade (I guess), I played Puyo Puyo... The cabinet that was on didn't work, but I noticed one of them is basically a huge emulator with nearly every console? It has handheld, arcade, SNES, Mega Drive / Genesis, and even N64. That's something I'd love to have at home, since my modded Wii is stashed away. I should probably get back into emulating older console games and review them. I played Aero the Acrobat again for a hot minute, but I am SO bad at using a joystick. Same when I tried playing Killer Instinct and Mortal Kombat, this shit feels rigged. Flashbacks to when I finally got to play Baraduke on an arcade, and the joystick made it 3x harder :(

And as soon as I come back online, I'm greeted to an incredibly rude comment from a complete stranger. Yay, internet!