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Sleeping, Sleeping, Sleeping...

A couple of weeks ago, Mom measured my mattress and ordered me a new one because my old one was so worn out that springs were actually STICKING OUT OF IT in places and it was like sleeping on a minefield. Anyway, the new one came in yesterday so I emptied out my entire room and we got it in place, and then I put everything back IN the room, just in a slightly different configuration than before. I had a little nap on it yesterday afternoon to test it out and it was fine, but LAST NIGHT OH MY GOD I haven't had such a good night's sleep in AGES. Normally, I wake up at 5am every day in absolute AGONY but last night I DIDN'T and just... GAH. The difference is night and day!!

On Monday I had a consultation with my Denturist again because ODSP fucking denied my claim because "not all missing teeth require dentures" which like, YES, I AGREE, but I am missing ALL OF MY UPPER MOLARS?? WTF?? Anyway, since then I've gotten onto CDCP and apparently they cover more than ODSP covers hence another appointment with the Denturist, so they can submit a care plan to CDCP and hopefully get me partial dentures so that I can, you know, CHEW FOOD AGAIN? Seriously, what the fuck ODSP. So, we're just waiting on CDCP to get back to the Denturist about that and I have my fingers crossed. Just. All of them.

I'm mostly done packing away (most of) my TKA stuff (plushie!Aidan and Tyler are staying out) and starting to work on replacing it with My Zombie stuff instead. Now that I have a new button designing/printing site (for now, anyway), I'm making MZ character buttons just like I did with TKA. The MZ cast is expanding a little, I just added Neila, Kelly, Blythe and Corbin to the mix, but to be honest it's mostly so I have people to kill off that aren't just Jazz. :P Not entirely sure what's in store for them quite yet, but they might all be meeting grizzly fates. (Except maybe for Kelly, I kind of like Kelly.)

I finished printing and collating Mom and Dad's copies of TKA for Christmas ($150 worth of ink alone, never mind the paper and the binders and the time), and I gave Mom's to her early thinking that she would want to read it right away but it turns out she's like 48% of the way through a 21 book series on her kindle and wants to finish it first. Whatever, I guess, I don't think either of them will particularly like TKA anyway, so it doesn't matter to me. And I asked Dad if he was coming up for Christmas because I CANNOT afford to ship his and Lois' gifts, and his response was literally "don't know"--just two words, not even a full sentence. Sometimes communicating with him can be frustrating.

Turns out at the very last minute Uncle Alec and Aunt Brenda decided they wanted to have Family Christmas after all, so on the 19th we're all getting together at their place for it. Clare probably won't come as usual. And we're not doing the gift exchange because everyone is too lazy to go out and get presents for it now, which sucks because it's like... 90% of the reason I even go anymore, especially with the way Grandma is and the strained relationship I currently have with Mom.

I just want things to go back to normal with my family, I want Mom and I to be best friends and my brother and I to be close like we used to be. But Mom resents me being in this house at this point, and my brother is completely wrapped up with his Secret Family in TO, it's like we don't matter at all anymore. He's probably going to try to get out of Christmas with us all together this year...

I dunno, this time of year especially, I miss the way things used to be.

Today I have some more ink coming from Amazon because I literally used up ALL my black ink doing the thing for Mom and Dad, and also a set of stainless steel measuring cups for Mom for Christmas. On the 18th I'm ordering more ink, Pluto food, some Frozen Christmas ornaments and a photo album for me to use as a scrapbook for MZ stuff, since I have one for TKA. Then on the 22nd, I have to order filters for the axolotl tank and more Frozen ornaments, and go do my end-of-the-month/last-minute-Christmas shopping. Fun times.

Aaaaaand now I have to go shove some BM Gold down Juna's gullet, which he HATES. Also fun times. /sarcasm.

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machine pastiche pony image

Creation of Mare

Source: https://tantabus.ai/images/64762 "Creation of mare".

Pastiche machine generator: Nanobanana. Prompter: Meta_Void.

The shock and dismay on the faces of the ponies peeking out of the clouds makes the image.

Since "AI", like amateur photography, is here to stay, and I welcome any eye-catching image, here we are, machine pastiche on Ponyville_Trot, even though the images are made by mindless machines spitting out statistically chosen connect-the-dots autocomplete hallucinations. A human with an idea, patience and a vocabulary is dropping the bombs into these virtual junkyards, and that's where skill comes in at the user level.

So now there's a Machine Pastiche Image tag, distinct from machine generated video, music, audio and text as it may occur. I'm not calling it AI, there's no more intelligence in these programs than there is in a bicycle. This is the 2nd auto-pastiche image here, to my surprise, this hookah smoking Twilight Sparkle is also auto-pastiche. Said so on DeviantArt, I just didn't know what "YiffyMix" was, so it didn't register.

What's missing is MLP photography. Not the Ponies Around the World photography, that's nice but the ponies aren't the focus of those pictures, it's where they are. MLP photography would be set-ups, like Kimono's Townhouse or better. Kinda rare. You can push a button on a camera or cellphone but photography is hard! Who knew?

ugh

Work has been wearing me out too much to do anything. Ironic, since my hours were snipped.
I have to edit every page on my site before I rebrand by January. I'm more than halfway done, but my brain just cannot work to do some things.
I have roughly 20+ pages left.

I should x-post some things I wrote elsewhere over here.

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picture art

Spikes

Coming soon: machine generated pony images, AKA cooking with free-falling robots. The cake is a lie, but sometimes it looks good.

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picture art

Cater Belle

Source: http://mysticalpha.deviantart.com/art/Cater-Belle-680314491

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: N/A

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Swapping Out

This past Sunday Mom and I went at and disassembled the old axolotl aquarium and set up the new one. It took all afternoon and there were FREQUENT breaks for both of us between hauling buckets of water, but the new tank has been up and running for a few days now and the axolotls seem happy. The new aquarium is a "breeder" tank, which means it's shorter and wider than the average 40gal tank, but since the axolotls are bottom dwellers, that just means they have more real estate to wander around in and there's enough space that I can fit another hide in there for them as well. I'll have a look for one next time I'm at Petsmart.

And finally getting the tanks switched out means the cedar chest, where the new tank has been living for literally MONTHS, is free again, so Mom is happy. Once again, I'm not allowed to keep the old tank to upcycle it unto a terrarium, even though last time AND this time Mom ASKED ME what I wanted to do with them. Like. If you're just going to say "no" and throw it out anyway, then why get my hopes up like that? Even though the last one and this one would make perfect snake/lizard terrariums and would have saved me HUNDREDS of dollars when I eventually move out on my own (any time now, subsidized housing people!) But whatever. I'm barely a person in this house anymore, so what should I expect, right?

Later today (after a nap) or tomorrow I have to give the bird cage a really good scrub out and tidy everything up to take some pics so I can list Winter/Shield/all their stuff for sale on Kijiji. When I rehomed Rosie and Emmett, it helped my allergies A LOT and as much as I love the boys, I know rehoming THEM will help even more (once I dust and vacuum my room after they're gone, of course) so I guess birds are just a no-go, even though the last allergist I saw told me I wasn't allergic to them anymore. (LIAR.)

But along with Winter and Shield and their main cage and accessories, they also come with a TON of extra food and treats, a spare water bottle that's never been opened, a BUNCH of spare toys, even a second CAGE that only got used once for like two days. So, I'd be asking at least $150 for everything. When I rehomed Rosie and Emmett they went just them and their cage and accessories and one bag of food for $65, so. Yeah. *shrug* And the extra money could come in useful this time of year, assuming someone took them right away...

...

I edited like 70+ pages of TKA yesterday and the good news is that it turns out I don't hate it nearly as much as I thought I did. Or at least, I don't hate the BEGINNING. We'll see how it goes later on. I'm trying to get the editing done relatively quickly because I want to put together binders for Mom and Dad for Christmas, so even though I didn't work on it today (so far) I really have to get back to it tomorrow. The TKA binders are super secret because I legit told Dad I wouldn't do that for him, but I changed my mind when I was in the "binders" section of Walmart when I was shopping last Friday. It's probably going to take two ink cartridges, and 600+ pages of paper, but I hope they'll be pleasantly surprised.

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Cuteness Trick

Source: http://powdan.deviantart.com/art/Cuteness-Trick-641530081

This wide-eyed expectant look is what seems to me to be the base line for the SFM pony models. It looks like squeezing anything else out of the puppets is quite hard, although argodaemon manages it.

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Tree Hugger

Source: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20229266/

Tree Hugger by RoseTheUnicorn, 10 of clubs.

Current Mood: cold
Current Location: Akron, OH

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pic-a-day november 2025

lots and lots of cat pics

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picture art

It's That Way

Source? Xitter. That's not a gallery. Also, no title, so I gave it one.

Imalou has at least two galleries, her DeviantArt gallery in which you will find over 1,000 works, many exceptional, and a much smaller gallery on Artstation, probably limited so potential employers can get an idea on an artist's skill quickly. Despite the design limitations and who knows what technical aspects stifling the A New Generation movie, Imalou can really shine, and it shows in these galleries. Imalou could totally pull off a calendar of her work.

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A Cloud After the Rain

Source: https://www.deviantart.com/rvsd/art/A-cloud-after-the-rain-1145491262

Another RSVD work. Is it digital acrylic or oil? Regardless, this RVSD painted portrait is different from most of their variations on a snapshot theme. It's interesting, nice despite the Hello Kitty ears which are a wee bit too close together.

Look! I remembered to post before December started this year!

Hello, friends! It's about to be December again, and you know what that means: the fact I am posting this actually before December 1 means

karzilla reminded me about the existence of linear time again. Wait, no -- well, yes, but also -- okay, look, let me back up and start again: it's almost December, and that means it's time for our annual December holiday points bonus.

The standard explanation: For the entire month of December, all orders made in the Shop of points and paid time, either for you or as a gift for a friend, will have 10% of your completed cart total sent to you in points when you finish the transaction. For instance, if you buy an order of 12 months of paid time for $35 (350 points), you'll get 35 points when the order is complete, to use on a future purchase.

( The fine print and much more behind this cut! )

Thank you, in short, for being the best possible users any social media site could possibly ever hope for. I'm probably in danger of crossing the Sappiness Line if I haven't already, but you all make everything worth it.

On behalf of Mark, Jen, Robby, and our team of awesome volunteers, and to each and every one of you, whether you've been with us on this wild ride since the beginning or just signed up last week, I'm wishing you all a very happy set of end-of-year holidays, whichever ones you celebrate, and hoping for all of you that your 2026 is full of kindness, determination, empathy, and a hell of a lot more luck than we've all had lately. Let's go.

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picture art

Apple Bloom

Source: https://www.deviantart.com/mysticalpha/art/Apple-Bloom-763790812

That mysticalpha.com watermark is for a commissions website. I didn't see this Apple Bloom there but there was a lot of pony artwork. If you change the settings to allow NSFW you will find that many of artworks have "anatomically correct" versions, plus gender bending versions and various mildly erotic takes. I've read that erotica pays the bills, but unless Mysticalpha is cranking out 14 drawings a week or 2 a day, it's not paying a living wage.

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persona 3

Reload diaries: It's Hamburger.

It's Hamburger

I said I was gonna post last Sunday, but since I was mid September already while writting the last post I thought it was better to finish the month to make another one :p

This week goes from September to our boy's death.

( Read more... )

Current Mood: chilly
Current Location: Akron, OH

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hobby: tarot

stuff and pulling some cards

cleaning up my desk, and my alleyman's tarot was still out from when i'd taken it to work to show a coworker, so i figured i'd pull a card for shits and giggles

pulled the full (very chunky) deck out and went to shuffle cards around. split it, apparently, in a spot where the cards were facing the wrong way (backs 'down' and faces 'up') and the first two cards i noticed were

six of wands
the queen of bombs

so i pulled those and re-adjusted the deck properly

six of wands

Good news is coming your way and all that. this is the parade of victory, returning from battle and having won. accomplishments, sure. but it’s also the victor coming home from war and reminding people they were right, because they won. Take a look at the justice system and you’ll know the victory isn’t always right.

This card can also be the revised history of the winner. be careful not to let the stories carry you away on what your success actually was.

in reverse, this is false victories. Explicitly the intensity of winning taking over your memory, inflating your ego. People love and support you, but you cannot let it simply be kindness. You see it as worship. Stop gloating, look at who you walk over in your victory lap. stay humble.

the queen of bombs

She stands for life, liberty, and the american way. which is of course bullshit. Ha.

The Queen of bombs is the nuclear wife. she is the caretaker and supporter of those who go out in the world, and she is the lap you curl up in to feel safe.

She will also destroy anything that gets in the way of that. She is motherliness as considered in the 50s, with the underlying threat of utter annihilation. She is the one who calms you in the face of the horrid reality of our planet’s potential end, of the creeping and unstoppable anxiety of climate change, of the possibility that a single nuclear warhead might lead to mutual annihilation. her calming touch also feels a little flat in comparison to those possibilities, but it can be okay to lie to yourself to feel good, sometimes.

in reverse, she is the apathetic hand of annihilation itself. You can find solace in there, but it’s not a warm
one. Cool and quiet.

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Pinkie in a Flower Field

Source: https://www.deviantart.com/candymeow333/art/Pinkie-in-a-flower-field-1249816453

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Flutter

Source: https://www.deviantart.com/gaelledragons/art/Flutter-754679157

Polychromos coloured pencils, although I think I see black ink and white gel pen too.