indicative of...

I've been... busy! which I love and hate

I'm sure you know how it is

i have a thing I'll call a "circle of habits" where i cycle between things i really want to do, and each cycle is like 2-3 weeks... idk. maybe this is normal fixation stuff. when I'm in one -- a cycle -- doing the thing i did last cycle seems utterly miserable, like it's the stalest concept imaginable.

so i entered a cycle that's more draw-fixated and less internet-social-fixated (which ironically is bad for my drawing marketing!), but I'm aware enough to realize the interest will come back eventually. aaaand-- i'm not a slave to habit! fuck yeah me, I'm kicking that in the shins right now by acknowledging it, and writing this is feeling nice!! maybe I'll kick my other shin and play more octopath. or I'll ask some other kind soul to do it for me since the first shin is already bruised and questioning the physicality of kicking my own shin makes brain bruise, too